I ponteng school today. Coughing... Runny nose... major HEADACHE!! It's impossible to concentrate in school. And Allysha's visiting us in school today and I'm didn't go. I already prepared her. haha... she's not as convincing as she used to. My health is more important. I need to rest as much as I can.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Being Sick
Being sick is the last thing on earth I want now. It's the worst feeling of all! I'm blurrier than my friend Cally (who is usually blur to jokes) when I am sick. I felt completely useless when I am sick. Even yesterday, during Youth meeting; I was a serious blur case. Didn't like the feeling at all. I'm trying to recollect my bearings and sort out my life.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
SPM pressure, tension and many more...
I know this is normal for every single SPM candidate, but I'm special ok?
I am built in with a nature to relax. I try my best to study everyday unlike other people who only studies a week before exams. Well, actually, I was like them. But after my mid-term exam this year, I did TRY my best to study everyday. And I did manage to study everyday. And just because I didn't study for today and watched Smallville on my laptop during my free time in the afternoons this whole week; she's now at this moment, scolding and nagging me like as if I've committed such a huge sin. Each time I touch my laptop, she'll on her nag switch automatically. It's like a sensor. I know she wants the best for me. But, she is spreading to everyone who is above me like the counselors about how I'm not studying. Hello... pressure much? And when I complained about pressure, she answered: "It's not that I give you pressure, you asked for it."
Wow... very comforting. Teachers in school are giving pressure especially when they target you into the top 30 who are expected to score straight A's. All the pentadbir(s) in my school are eying on me and my friends. Especially the PK Akademik. Teachers, mum, people who mum told them bout me. I'm like trying my best to study. You see, I'm even banned from watching TV! I obeyed that rule didn't I? If you know me through and through, I used to say I can't survive without TV. And she looked past that. Argh! I just don't know what to do now. If I don't achieve what people expect me to achieve, straight A's; then am I a failure? *sigh...
I am built in with a nature to relax. I try my best to study everyday unlike other people who only studies a week before exams. Well, actually, I was like them. But after my mid-term exam this year, I did TRY my best to study everyday. And I did manage to study everyday. And just because I didn't study for today and watched Smallville on my laptop during my free time in the afternoons this whole week; she's now at this moment, scolding and nagging me like as if I've committed such a huge sin. Each time I touch my laptop, she'll on her nag switch automatically. It's like a sensor. I know she wants the best for me. But, she is spreading to everyone who is above me like the counselors about how I'm not studying. Hello... pressure much? And when I complained about pressure, she answered: "It's not that I give you pressure, you asked for it."
Wow... very comforting. Teachers in school are giving pressure especially when they target you into the top 30 who are expected to score straight A's. All the pentadbir(s) in my school are eying on me and my friends. Especially the PK Akademik. Teachers, mum, people who mum told them bout me. I'm like trying my best to study. You see, I'm even banned from watching TV! I obeyed that rule didn't I? If you know me through and through, I used to say I can't survive without TV. And she looked past that. Argh! I just don't know what to do now. If I don't achieve what people expect me to achieve, straight A's; then am I a failure? *sigh...
Friday, July 23, 2010
Lip Gloss
My name is Joanna Thinn Mar.
I grew up with a mum who never bothers about beauty but only decency.
I grew up wearing simple clothing.
Fashion of clothes, shoes and accessories were never discussed in my family.
Make-up was banned ever since I knew about them.
As I grow up, I was exposed to all these.
I really feel inspired to try something new, change my style.
But...
It's so hard and I'm not brave enough.
So, I'll start small.... Really small.
My 1st step:
Owning a lip gloss.
The funniest thing I think now, is that, I have no time to go out. But my mum has because she fetches kids from school. And so, my first lip gloss will be chosen by my mum. Hilarious indeed. ha.ha.ha... swt-_-"
Hopefully, she chooses something of my type. I can trust aunty Elaine or aunty Swee Hong but never my mum on make-up. To those who know my mum, you should know why. So I'm sending her out to my my first lip gloss by faith. Yes, faith. God bless, I hope I made you laugh today.
I grew up with a mum who never bothers about beauty but only decency.
I grew up wearing simple clothing.
Fashion of clothes, shoes and accessories were never discussed in my family.
Make-up was banned ever since I knew about them.
As I grow up, I was exposed to all these.
I really feel inspired to try something new, change my style.
But...
It's so hard and I'm not brave enough.
So, I'll start small.... Really small.
My 1st step:
Owning a lip gloss.
The funniest thing I think now, is that, I have no time to go out. But my mum has because she fetches kids from school. And so, my first lip gloss will be chosen by my mum. Hilarious indeed. ha.ha.ha... swt-_-"
Hopefully, she chooses something of my type. I can trust aunty Elaine or aunty Swee Hong but never my mum on make-up. To those who know my mum, you should know why. So I'm sending her out to my my first lip gloss by faith. Yes, faith. God bless, I hope I made you laugh today.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
couldn't take my eyes of him
Okay... I know the title sounds quite a "hopeless romantic" phrase, but literally; I couldn't take my eyes of this guy.
He was involved in the accident which took place around 3 months ago where 5 were in a Wira car. 3 got killed, 1 escaped with minor injuries and he was in a critical condition. His name is Thee Kai Yang. I was so worried actually. Before this accident happened, 3 of our schoolmates was killed in road accidents.
We grew up together, sort of. Same school since primary till now. When my friend announced to me about the accident, she didn't tell me straightforwardly but my heart stopped when she said that people died in that accident.
He survived and was in the hospital for more than 2 months. He just came back to school this week. And after school today, I was walking with my friend and I saw him with the familiar yellow Digi bag. I was thrilled to see him. Usually I would breeze walk and zoom pass all the slow moving pedestrians in front of me. Today however, I walked on a slow and steady pace behind him. Observing him walking and how he interacted with this buddies.
Really, I didn't take my eyes of him until we reached a point where I needed to turn right to my mum's car and he kept walking straight to his car. He really lost a lot of weight and the pants that he once tighten to fit to his legs, looked baggy on him. He is literally a walking stick. But then, I'm hoping that he experienced something spiritual when he nearly died that morning. I watched that video from a CCTV of a factory, and the impact with the lorry... the lorry overturned.
God gave him a second chance and I feel a prompting to talk to him.
Seriously, I couldn't take my eyes off him.
He was involved in the accident which took place around 3 months ago where 5 were in a Wira car. 3 got killed, 1 escaped with minor injuries and he was in a critical condition. His name is Thee Kai Yang. I was so worried actually. Before this accident happened, 3 of our schoolmates was killed in road accidents.
We grew up together, sort of. Same school since primary till now. When my friend announced to me about the accident, she didn't tell me straightforwardly but my heart stopped when she said that people died in that accident.
He survived and was in the hospital for more than 2 months. He just came back to school this week. And after school today, I was walking with my friend and I saw him with the familiar yellow Digi bag. I was thrilled to see him. Usually I would breeze walk and zoom pass all the slow moving pedestrians in front of me. Today however, I walked on a slow and steady pace behind him. Observing him walking and how he interacted with this buddies.
Really, I didn't take my eyes of him until we reached a point where I needed to turn right to my mum's car and he kept walking straight to his car. He really lost a lot of weight and the pants that he once tighten to fit to his legs, looked baggy on him. He is literally a walking stick. But then, I'm hoping that he experienced something spiritual when he nearly died that morning. I watched that video from a CCTV of a factory, and the impact with the lorry... the lorry overturned.
God gave him a second chance and I feel a prompting to talk to him.
Seriously, I couldn't take my eyes off him.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Akegarasu Haya Prize Essay Contest
*sigh...
What on earth should I write? Theme: Why my mother is so important to me. I have no idea so far. But the prize is 100 000 yen which is = RM3655. It's not like I have the chance of winning right? Or maybe I have that is why I still am not giving up on this thing. The deadline is tomorrow and it was only today that my English teacher received the letter from JPS. Very efficient; I can see that! Since I'm submitting it on the last minute, I would need to write something of a true story about my mum and yet very creative and bombastic but not full of jargons. Hmm... What should I write?
What on earth should I write? Theme: Why my mother is so important to me. I have no idea so far. But the prize is 100 000 yen which is = RM3655. It's not like I have the chance of winning right? Or maybe I have that is why I still am not giving up on this thing. The deadline is tomorrow and it was only today that my English teacher received the letter from JPS. Very efficient; I can see that! Since I'm submitting it on the last minute, I would need to write something of a true story about my mum and yet very creative and bombastic but not full of jargons. Hmm... What should I write?
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Journal for my future husband
I was inspired to write a journal to my future husband starting yesterday. It sounded so fun. Actually, it is still fun. Whoever he is out there, I feel that we are already connected by God. Aunty Elaine has advised me to list out the requirements that I need/want in my future husband and after so long, I finally listed them down. I have 14 altogether and will not post on this blog :P
Then, I got this incredible idea to write a journal to my future husband. It's so hard to call him. I'm have no clue at all whether is he in my life right now or maybe I'll meet in later on in life. Life is very unpredictable. God is giving me suspense now as I wait who is the one that he planned for me. To all you girls out there, list the requirements that you want/need in your future husband. Pray about it. Or maybe, you can start your very own journal for your future husband.
For me, that journal that I will compile as I grow and then meet him, will be the most precious wedding gift anyone could ever give to her spouse and vice versa. I wonder whether my future husband is also writing a journal to me at the same time... It would be very nice and amazing if he also does that. Goodness, life seems so exciting now. LOL!!
As for now, 145 days till SPM. I gotta focus on this first at the same time trust God that He is preparing my future husband for me. I look forward to that day we meet, my future husband.
Then, I got this incredible idea to write a journal to my future husband. It's so hard to call him. I'm have no clue at all whether is he in my life right now or maybe I'll meet in later on in life. Life is very unpredictable. God is giving me suspense now as I wait who is the one that he planned for me. To all you girls out there, list the requirements that you want/need in your future husband. Pray about it. Or maybe, you can start your very own journal for your future husband.
For me, that journal that I will compile as I grow and then meet him, will be the most precious wedding gift anyone could ever give to her spouse and vice versa. I wonder whether my future husband is also writing a journal to me at the same time... It would be very nice and amazing if he also does that. Goodness, life seems so exciting now. LOL!!
As for now, 145 days till SPM. I gotta focus on this first at the same time trust God that He is preparing my future husband for me. I look forward to that day we meet, my future husband.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Youth Sunday
Totally a blast!!
All glory to God. However, we did make a huge mistake regarding the attendance of the people. Why aren't the ushers doing their job properly?? I asked them to count! Count properly! Nevermind. We shall not do that again. Took the ushers so lightly. *sigh... Shouldn't have. Anyway... everything went well. I'm quite happy with what we achieved today. Hopefully through today, some will change and be more responsible in the days to come. Jesus, I surrender all!!
All glory to God. However, we did make a huge mistake regarding the attendance of the people. Why aren't the ushers doing their job properly?? I asked them to count! Count properly! Nevermind. We shall not do that again. Took the ushers so lightly. *sigh... Shouldn't have. Anyway... everything went well. I'm quite happy with what we achieved today. Hopefully through today, some will change and be more responsible in the days to come. Jesus, I surrender all!!
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