Strangely Peaceful

I am actually free on a Saturday! Aha! This is crazy~

Normally, I am super jam pack during the weekends. I'm either having tambourine class, or worship practice both for Sunday Service and Youth. But today, I'm totally FREE!! Hahahaha! 

This is strangely satisfying. God is truly good to me. His forgiveness of sins, His grace is beyond abundant to me. 
            I had the most terrific time yesterday even though I was tired. 
I had lunch with my good friend and ex-secretary of SOS Youth: Gan Foon Yoong! and friend: Evelyn. We ate at Sakae and oh my goodness, that is the most expensive lunch I've ever had. I shouldn't have ordered the main course. Mum will kill me if she finds out how much I spent on that lunch. Then, we went to Popular. I finally got my very own Student card! Muahahaha! Bought Chemistry reference book. I've never been so interested in Chemistry before. The chapters sound easy but the explanation and everything is just so in depth. Scary... So I gotta get a head start or else I'm gonna be so BLUR in form 6. Then Evelyn had to go. Later, Yoong and I went to eat a doughnut and left to fetch Khai Meng! Then we went to Taman Rakyat and jogged/walked. I felt giddy. The surrounding kinda made me feel like as if I was in a dream. Scary... So we turned back from hiking and went to the flat mat and did some crazy kick-ups. Soon, we were choreographing moves for Youth Sunday performance! 
        Yoong and I had a very interesting conversation. Both of us are struggling with our emotions. It's terrible. But, I keep reminding myself, I'm only 18. My future is bright ahead of me. Wouldn't want guy problems to get in the way. =D
      After a quick bath, Charis came to pick me up from Yoong's place and met up with the college CG. I played Taboo first with the Ang siblings and Daniel Lee while Charis went back home to freshen up. After not playing Taboo for 8 years, I enjoyed playing despite being brain jam a few times. Ugh..! Tired. After P&W, we had Praise Report and we finally went to eat our dinner at the same Northen Indian restaurant aunty Susheela celebrated her birthday near Teluk Gadung. The food there was delicious. Mutton Keema Naan. Hmm... Brit brought her semi-pro camera along and Charis (the expert poser) was doing her thing. Haha! I had a wonderful time yesterday, especially hearing the praise reports. It's a wonderful reminder on how God is still so real in our lives. God is certainly faithful to us. 

Drifting

Easter is just around the corner. Why are my brothers and sisters drifting away? The spirit of the remembrance of Jesus' death and resurrection is so vibrant here in Klang. But it's not so where my brothers and sisters are. 

Please... do not lose focus on Christ.

Do not lower your guard against the evil one.

Be transformed with a constant renewing of your mind each day.

Do not feel guilty when you stop missing us.

Do not feel down because the big boys look down on you.

Continue this mission of life:

Fulfill the purpose of God that was placed in your life.

To win souls for Him.

To earn that crown of glory by finishing the race well.

To end it and be welcomed by God with these words:

"Well done, good and faithful servant"

Remember, "You are not alone. I am here with you. Though you're far away, I am here to say, you are not alone"

Even though these are the lyrics of one of MJ's songs, (I dislike MJ very much by the way) but in this situation now; it is what I want you guys to know. God bless =)

             

Things I Need

1. Laptop or desktop? 
2. Digital Camera
3. Acoustic guitar (plug-in or not?)
4. Colour pens ( plus shinny ones)
5. Alphabet stickers (for my form 6 notebooks titles)

Yes. This is me. I want to have a refreshed life; to turn over a new leaf when form 6 starts. I used the church's new computer to do some stuff and I love the speed! Which is why I want to get a brand new desktop or laptop! I just really want a genuine windows 7 with 4 - 8GB RAM, and 64-Bits! My dream... I hope I'll manage to get it this year. I cannot stand the slowness of the Windows XP or even my current laptop Windows 7 is deteriorating. What can I do to upgrade its speed and memory? Disc clean up and defragmenting does not help much. I remember learning in ICT class that there's another memory storage where it's all codes and you need to master in that area to know what you're doing. It's in the system and is something which is a whole lot different. Which is why I'm very interested to study that, besides Medic of course. 
          *sigh...
Speed is so important now a days. I can't stand slow tech! So I'm currently looking out for guitars and computers. Hoping to start the digital camera scout soon. 

This guitar takes me breath away!
So does the price! T.T

Dell SWITCH designs are really special! T.T

Lord, please lead me to good deals for all these items, Amen.

1st Genuine Quarrel With My Dad

It's been a long while since I've blogged. I think the blogging frenzy is dying down on everyone. But still, I feel that it's unfair especially to those who care about me. I've realized that the only effective way to actually know and get updated on everyone is through their blogs.


Something very exciting and unusual happened last night. Zan called dad to invited him for Easter this Sunday. And then the usual answer will be "See first." He said that he cannot promise. So I talked to him and our conversation turned into an argument and then a big quarrel. I never quarreled like that ever! Everything that I wanted to tell him, everything that was kept buried in me since the day he left us almost 3 years ago came out during that conversation. Usually, when we argue about God or about Mum, the thing is left hanging. But last night, I WON! I rendered him speechless at the end and from his loud raising voice from the very beginning of the conversation dimmed to a gentle soft voice when we ended it. Everything I had ever wanted to tell him even the content and things I left out in the letter I wrote during JS to him, was all spoken out. 


I feel so satisfied! =D


But then, the verse, the 5th commandment:
 Honour your father and mother and you will have a long life. 


I don't know. During the conversation, I really stood up for God all the way. Pointing out to him that he had made God so small, the God who created him, the God who saved him from death many times. I really hope that whatever I told him last night will trigger his mind because he made it quite clear that his life is meaningless and that the only reason he's alive is because he needs to find money to pay his promise of providing 1K for the family every month. Even that is so burdensome for him. Which is why he needs to go back to God. Depending on his own strength everyday is tiresome. He made that very clear. At least he acknowledges it. At least he realizes that but his solution is wrong. Hopefully our conversation hit something in his stoned heart. I hope the drought land of his heart has received at least a drop of water which will soften his heart. And at the moment, I pray that he'll be able to come for Easter! 

Lord! Please bring papa for Easter service! He needs to come back to you so that we can be a family again. Please... 

Amen.

Truly, He is GREAT, MIGHTY and AWESOME

Here in Your presence

We are undone

Here in Your presence

Heaven and earth become one

Here in Your presence

All things are new

Here in Your presence

Everything bows before You

3 things that made me realize how truly, seriously, BIG, GREAT, MIGHTY and AWESOME God is this past week. I participated in the "Read Through the Bible" Marathon which was an on-going thing (non-stop 24/7). I committed myself to read from 5.30-7am on Tuesday-Thursday. So on Tuesday morning, I was given the passage of 1 Kings chapter 9-11. And I read how the LORD was serious, handling and dealing with sinful people who do not follow His commands. Listening to the Word being read out, it dawn on me that God is seriously HOLY and not obeying Him has serious consequences to it even to the point of death. 

             The 2nd thing, right after the reading, I went out to refill my mug of water and suddenly when I opened the door I heard the birds chirping and the sky begin to light. It was dawn. And I suddenly felt the awesomeness of God! And I went to the entrance of the church and I saw the sunrise. (Our church is on a hill) It was glorious. And again, suddenly, I felt that I am SUPER small compared to God. I'm just a grain of sand when compared to the sea or even the sky! And yet, He sent His one and only son, Jesus to die for a grain of dirt like me. He loves me that much?? Why? Why would He? After that, I didn't dare look up to God. every time I prayed, I will look down, knowing that I'm worthless, beyond worthless. Seriously, God shouldn't have done what He did. Yet, it was done, it was finished. 

             The 3rd thing that made me open my eyes and made we realized fully how wonderful, beautiful, glorious, matchless in every way God is. The song, Here in Your Presence. The lyrics are just SOOOO meaningful and beautiful and true of what it is when we're in God's presence. I was playing the guitar this morning for worship and this song was one of it and seriously, it's majestic! Hearing it again on youtube- Here in Your Presence I cried just listening and watching the people worship God. Simply amazing. 

                Therefore, after today's Youth AGM, I encouraged the new committee to truly realize that God is beyond BIG, GREAT, MIGHTY and AWESOME. And that He only deserves our best. I am now truly and sincerely motivated to study my best for form 6. And that my dream to go to Methodist College, KL can now be pushed aside and focus on form 6.  

Oh Lord, no words on earth can describe how BIG, GREAT, MIGHTY and AWESOME You are. My heart is humbled before You, knowing that I am only a grain of pure filth compared to You, O Holy God. Purify me, cleanse me, and use me for Your glory. In Jesus' name, Amen.