Discipline

Thank God that Orientation Week in High School Klang is finally OVER!
I can finally put my head straight on the prize, the goal of scoring the best an STPM student can ever score: 4 FLATS. Yes, yes... Everybody is telling me what a killer STPM is. That was the same thing my secondary seniors told me about Add Maths, what a killer it is. And with that negative input in my brain, I struggled through the 2 years. It was only by the grace of God that I managed to last minute grasp the concept of Index Numbers on the day of the exam itself and managed to score a B. (which I have never accomplished before in my entire life)
            So, this time around in STPM, I'm not gonna let those comments about STPM get in the way. I will my best and discipline myself to the max to achieve my full potential. I ain't bragging, but I am born smart. In fact, no body on earth is born stupid. They have brains and their brains work well. The only honest comment I can give about my SPM result: I was lazy. Yeap, there you have it. The truth. 
           I am going to put in my best effort in disciplining my life now. The mission now is to do my best to accomplish the best, for the glory of God. 

Dear Lord,

thank you for this second chance to redeem myself from the failure of not disciplining myself last year. With your help and guidance, Lord; I want, I need, I am going to do my best this 1 and 1/2 years. Do accomplish what I can accomplish with my best effort. I cannot do this without you. I acknowledge it's gonna be a wild, rough ride. But with you, nothing is impossible. I believe! I believe!

Into your hands, I commit again

With all I am, for you Lord

You hold my world, in the palm of your hands

And I am yours forever...

Amen.

Orientation Week

High School Klang's Orientation Week is the most interesting and at the same time the most "pissing people off" one I've ever seen and been in. 
                     The first thing they did was to use the mic and yelled at us juniors. 
Day 1: Registration, taklimat, instructions to make firefly costume, signature book that uses almost 75 A4 papers. 

My Firefly costume

Day 2: More taklimat, wearing the costume the whole day, ordering us around, commanding us to greet seniors and seniors with special name tags and special posts; signature book check, more yelling, instructions on how to win signatures from seniors tomorrow, buy sweets! 


High School is nice. The environment is nice. The food is nice. And 3 different canteens, one Malay, 2 Chinese (cooked and served on plate food + bakery). Transferring to ACS would be done next week. Hmm... Will I miss High School? 

Plans

SMK Tinggi Klang (a.k.a High School Kang)
I am posted to this school to study form 6, but my mum and I have talked and thought about it, I'll need to transfer to ACS. The thing is, I need to wait stay 2 weeks in that school and only then I can apply for transfer and who knows how long that process is gonna take. 

The Main Building

Looks quite grand right? They have 3 different canteens. A single building for the library itself and form 6 students get a whole block to themselves out from the rest of the secondary students sight. So cool right? It is really a beautiful school. It's super BIG! I'm afraid that being in that school for 3 weeks will make me stay and not think about transferring. *sigh...
            I really like that school. The environment especially. It's an all boys school and yet, they are really clean! It can be considered ancient but still way much better than ACS. I've been to ACS a few times over the years and that school has a huge field and compound in the middle on the school. The office sucks though. The canteen is ordinary and the layout of the building is just simple unlike High School. I feel like sticking to High School now. And all this while I've been telling people that I want to go to ACS. 

The badge looks ugly though. 

I am really contemplating. What's most important is the teachers. Whether they are committed and dedicated to their work to teach us properly. Especially for me. I'm a little weak in Chemistry and Maths. I need real guidance and teaching that will make help me understand well. If the teachers don't teach well in High School, that's it; I am transferring out of there. 

Strangely Peaceful

I am actually free on a Saturday! Aha! This is crazy~

Normally, I am super jam pack during the weekends. I'm either having tambourine class, or worship practice both for Sunday Service and Youth. But today, I'm totally FREE!! Hahahaha! 

This is strangely satisfying. God is truly good to me. His forgiveness of sins, His grace is beyond abundant to me. 
            I had the most terrific time yesterday even though I was tired. 
I had lunch with my good friend and ex-secretary of SOS Youth: Gan Foon Yoong! and friend: Evelyn. We ate at Sakae and oh my goodness, that is the most expensive lunch I've ever had. I shouldn't have ordered the main course. Mum will kill me if she finds out how much I spent on that lunch. Then, we went to Popular. I finally got my very own Student card! Muahahaha! Bought Chemistry reference book. I've never been so interested in Chemistry before. The chapters sound easy but the explanation and everything is just so in depth. Scary... So I gotta get a head start or else I'm gonna be so BLUR in form 6. Then Evelyn had to go. Later, Yoong and I went to eat a doughnut and left to fetch Khai Meng! Then we went to Taman Rakyat and jogged/walked. I felt giddy. The surrounding kinda made me feel like as if I was in a dream. Scary... So we turned back from hiking and went to the flat mat and did some crazy kick-ups. Soon, we were choreographing moves for Youth Sunday performance! 
        Yoong and I had a very interesting conversation. Both of us are struggling with our emotions. It's terrible. But, I keep reminding myself, I'm only 18. My future is bright ahead of me. Wouldn't want guy problems to get in the way. =D
      After a quick bath, Charis came to pick me up from Yoong's place and met up with the college CG. I played Taboo first with the Ang siblings and Daniel Lee while Charis went back home to freshen up. After not playing Taboo for 8 years, I enjoyed playing despite being brain jam a few times. Ugh..! Tired. After P&W, we had Praise Report and we finally went to eat our dinner at the same Northen Indian restaurant aunty Susheela celebrated her birthday near Teluk Gadung. The food there was delicious. Mutton Keema Naan. Hmm... Brit brought her semi-pro camera along and Charis (the expert poser) was doing her thing. Haha! I had a wonderful time yesterday, especially hearing the praise reports. It's a wonderful reminder on how God is still so real in our lives. God is certainly faithful to us. 

Drifting

Easter is just around the corner. Why are my brothers and sisters drifting away? The spirit of the remembrance of Jesus' death and resurrection is so vibrant here in Klang. But it's not so where my brothers and sisters are. 

Please... do not lose focus on Christ.

Do not lower your guard against the evil one.

Be transformed with a constant renewing of your mind each day.

Do not feel guilty when you stop missing us.

Do not feel down because the big boys look down on you.

Continue this mission of life:

Fulfill the purpose of God that was placed in your life.

To win souls for Him.

To earn that crown of glory by finishing the race well.

To end it and be welcomed by God with these words:

"Well done, good and faithful servant"

Remember, "You are not alone. I am here with you. Though you're far away, I am here to say, you are not alone"

Even though these are the lyrics of one of MJ's songs, (I dislike MJ very much by the way) but in this situation now; it is what I want you guys to know. God bless =)

             

Things I Need

1. Laptop or desktop? 
2. Digital Camera
3. Acoustic guitar (plug-in or not?)
4. Colour pens ( plus shinny ones)
5. Alphabet stickers (for my form 6 notebooks titles)

Yes. This is me. I want to have a refreshed life; to turn over a new leaf when form 6 starts. I used the church's new computer to do some stuff and I love the speed! Which is why I want to get a brand new desktop or laptop! I just really want a genuine windows 7 with 4 - 8GB RAM, and 64-Bits! My dream... I hope I'll manage to get it this year. I cannot stand the slowness of the Windows XP or even my current laptop Windows 7 is deteriorating. What can I do to upgrade its speed and memory? Disc clean up and defragmenting does not help much. I remember learning in ICT class that there's another memory storage where it's all codes and you need to master in that area to know what you're doing. It's in the system and is something which is a whole lot different. Which is why I'm very interested to study that, besides Medic of course. 
          *sigh...
Speed is so important now a days. I can't stand slow tech! So I'm currently looking out for guitars and computers. Hoping to start the digital camera scout soon. 

This guitar takes me breath away!
So does the price! T.T

Dell SWITCH designs are really special! T.T

Lord, please lead me to good deals for all these items, Amen.

1st Genuine Quarrel With My Dad

It's been a long while since I've blogged. I think the blogging frenzy is dying down on everyone. But still, I feel that it's unfair especially to those who care about me. I've realized that the only effective way to actually know and get updated on everyone is through their blogs.


Something very exciting and unusual happened last night. Zan called dad to invited him for Easter this Sunday. And then the usual answer will be "See first." He said that he cannot promise. So I talked to him and our conversation turned into an argument and then a big quarrel. I never quarreled like that ever! Everything that I wanted to tell him, everything that was kept buried in me since the day he left us almost 3 years ago came out during that conversation. Usually, when we argue about God or about Mum, the thing is left hanging. But last night, I WON! I rendered him speechless at the end and from his loud raising voice from the very beginning of the conversation dimmed to a gentle soft voice when we ended it. Everything I had ever wanted to tell him even the content and things I left out in the letter I wrote during JS to him, was all spoken out. 


I feel so satisfied! =D


But then, the verse, the 5th commandment:
 Honour your father and mother and you will have a long life. 


I don't know. During the conversation, I really stood up for God all the way. Pointing out to him that he had made God so small, the God who created him, the God who saved him from death many times. I really hope that whatever I told him last night will trigger his mind because he made it quite clear that his life is meaningless and that the only reason he's alive is because he needs to find money to pay his promise of providing 1K for the family every month. Even that is so burdensome for him. Which is why he needs to go back to God. Depending on his own strength everyday is tiresome. He made that very clear. At least he acknowledges it. At least he realizes that but his solution is wrong. Hopefully our conversation hit something in his stoned heart. I hope the drought land of his heart has received at least a drop of water which will soften his heart. And at the moment, I pray that he'll be able to come for Easter! 

Lord! Please bring papa for Easter service! He needs to come back to you so that we can be a family again. Please... 

Amen.